What Are You So Afraid Of?

On the real, what happened to these kids?
OK Three Ways family, I’m going to be honest with you. This past Saturday I drove for a little less than 8 hours (round trip) and with all that damn time in my car, I couldn’t come up with an idea for today’s blog post. Well a post that met my standards and/or that wasn’t going to offend someone. I was mentally tapped out. The right side of my brain was dusty. I reached down into the magical idea bag and all I felt was the velvet lining. The brainstorm clouds never came, the river ran dry and there was no Creativity FEMA in sight. You get where I’m going. With the walls closing in, slave masters Slim Jackson and Miss Jenkins gave me the eye from afar with whips in hand, wondering what the hell I was going to write for today. My worst fear was finally coming true – I ran out of ideas.
For me it’s more than this award-winning blog, I make my living off my ideas. Without divulging too much, you can say I paint pretty pictures with words and use my imagination to create what I hope will be cool stuff for 8-12 hours a day. Unlike a true artist, I have to be “on” constantly. No breaks in this game. But like a true artist I’m only as good as my last piece of work. The industry I work in is quick to turn around with her neck swinging and pointer finger in the air and say, “…[Seattle], what have you done for me lately?” So until I hit the lottery, or have a team of young up and coming cats working for me, the fear of running out of ideas will be in the back of my mind. My desperation and fear got me thinking though, what else am I afraid of?
Running Out of Time
I don’t care about dying, it’s going to happen when it’s going to happen. Being exposed to death or someone on the brink of death early in your life puts lets you know early that there’s no escaping it. But it also got me worried about going too soon. As a result, I’ve become highly impatient and ambitious in regards to my career and endeavors. I’ve got so much I want to do and my fear is that my tasks will go without being completed.
“I Do”
I joke about being a Timeless Toys ‘R’ Us kid with my friends, but I don’t want to be that old dude in the club. No matter how much of a baby face I have, I don’t want to have to kick game and chase young ass, or old ass for that matter, when I’m older. Well… No, I don’t. On the other hand, I’ve seen first hand what a dysfunctional marriage is and I’m not sure I want to dive into that either. Eh, it’ll work itself out. Right? Yeah, right.
Betrayal
I have a close crew of battle tested friends. I know that if something happened they’d be there, I know they’ll tell me when I’m messing up and be there if I am. Because they have. But, it took a minute for folks to get that close. I tend to keep folks at arm’s length and anyone that knows me knows my arms are as long as Inspector Gadget’s. I don’t trust folks because of a fear of betrayal. It takes a little while for me to warm up and truly open up, especially to women. I’m no emo slut!
And with that said, I’m shutting it back down and closing the doors like Japan back in the 1600s. That’s all I got folks. No clowns, mysterious demons or close encounters of the fourth kind, just some basic life fears from your boy Seattle. I am afraid of walking out the house with something on my face, but I didn’t think that was as… deep. As you can probably tell I feel all vulnerable and sh!t now, so I’m going to retreat to my man cave. In the meantime, please let me know what are you guys afraid of. And what have you done to get, or try to get, past it all? Let’s gather around the proverbial campfire and share scary stories like those kids from Nick. Who brought the s’mores and the trees? Someone spark Slim & RCLS up for their Founders and let’s get to it.
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Hold on. I’m first? Unacceptable.
Fear is a tricky, treacherous m*tha….you know the rest. For some of us it can be all but a game killer and for others of us it can be all the motivation we need.
I have a serious fear of failure. Some people say that so that they can slick try to pump themselves up like “I’m afraid of failure, so I never fail…” But that’s not me. I’m afraid of failing (and I have). Sometimes I don’t take the risks necessary because that fear of failure comes in. ::shudder::
I don’t think I realized it, but I kinda fear losing people close to me without getting a chance to say or do something with or for them… and then this very scenario played out in my life (hence my realization).
But I think my biggest fear is, one of yours, Seattle. Betrayal. I cannot, will not with a fork. If I let you into the inner-circle, you have been well tested. WELL tested.
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Hahahaha… the “are you afraid of the dark” pic is hilarious.. certainly puts me on a stroll down memory lane.
Anyway, been a minute since I checked in… just wanted to drop my couple of pennies on the subject.
Things I am afraid of include:
- Going Deaf/Blind
- Car trouble
- My jeans splitting (especially while performing)
- STDs
- DDTs
- The Knicks not winning a ring in my lifetime
I used to be afraid of people breaking into my house, the end of the world, and failure.. but i’ve pretty much shook those off.
- GUNS & BUTTER
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Seattle Washington Reply:
November 17th, 2009 at 12:17 pm
Dude, I’m scared the Knicks will do the same thing. They aren’t getting Lebron. Maybe Wade, but what star would want to come to NYC right now? It’s not the market it used to be.
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CHeeKZ Reply:
November 17th, 2009 at 1:33 pm
Amare or CBosh is coming to NY. The other is going to Mia.
Write it in stone. We only have to worry about the backcourt piece of the puzzle. I don’t want to settle for Joe Johnson but he would take a little less than the max and knows the system from his time in Phx.
Amare/Cbosh
D Lee
Wilson Chandler
Joe ‘My hairline aint what it use to be’ Johnson
Nat Robinson/ Duhon
I think we are smelling a winner with that combination. We are atleast as good as Orlando..
What people should be talking about is how the Knicks messed up a chance to get this kid Jennings. I TOLD PEOPLE HE WAS A STAR!
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Streetztalk Reply:
November 17th, 2009 at 1:38 pm
smh…
If the Knicks ever win a title.. i will be guaranteed to go buckwild in the StreetZ of NYC!
I think Wade has the best chance of ending up here. Lebron def wont.
It isnt about the NY market. Our market is still the GOAT its abt yrs of mediocrity and players who thrive in other cities and KNOW they will NEVER make it in NY. Sucks but thats the paradox
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Woooosssaaahhhhh…my biggest fear is being alone, being the last one in a circle of people I love and not being able to let go and closing in on myself and backing away from life..I am terrified of being alone
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ASmith Reply:
November 17th, 2009 at 9:13 am
Whoa. The way you described that had me shaking a little.
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Smiley Face Reply:
November 17th, 2009 at 9:23 am
See why I’m terrified? lol…
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I’m afraid of losing my teeth. They’re not completely perfect, but close to it. My good genetics contributed naturally straight and white teeth (no braces here). People always compliment me on my teeth. Such would not be the case if I was Toothless Toni.
Crossing the street and getting hit by a car is another big fear. My dad was hit by a drunk driver while jogging (and he was on the sidewalk). He survived, but my nerves didn’t. Now I break out into a sweat whenever I have to cross the street.
My biggest fear is dying unfulfilled by not reaching my full potential as a writer. It’s the only thing I wanted to be since fourth grade, and I’m 24 now. I don’t want much. Maybe a Pulitzer, a series of best-selling novels and a nationally syndicated newspaper humor column. At the very least, I just want to master the art of storytelling with the written word. Otherwise, my entire existence will be a complete waste.
Other fears include: clowns, biting my tongue off, choking on pills/tic tacs and doctors messing up my nose.
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I’m afraid of losing at this game of life. Thus I’m trying to get down with the 10,000 hours rules.
P.S. ROOO to the GOOD bruhz, Not so Good bruhz and the MEOW Mix
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Awww, Seattle went got all deep & vulnerable on us. Kudos, kudos.
I’m afraid of a lot of things. Specifically, death. It terrifies me to think that one day I will not be moving & breathing. One day I’ll simply be a distant memory in the back of someone’s mind. Also, where will I go when I die? That scares me b/c I have very liberal beliefs about the Creator so I’m not sure where I’ll end up if anywhere. I’m trying to make sense but I don’t feel like I am.
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First of all that pic = GOAT!
Second my fears include
Failure – I always try to succeed in anythign that I do, and to fail scares the ish out of me!
Not meeting my true potential – I feel like im destined for greatness, but when will that occur? am I wasting my time? smh
Death – yup, a classic. Ive been able to battle it but it lingers from time to time
Heights – more of a fear of falling, but depeinding on the situation I can get a little panicky. THats why I laugh when people try to get me to skydive. GTFOH lmao
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what do i fear?
i have a huge fear of failure. i’ve worked hard so far in my life to make sure that doesn’t happen but anything is possible so i hope i never fail at the game of life.
i also fear drowning or suffocating. since i can’t swim i’m always anxious whenever i’m around large bodies of water (i.e.-driving over a bridge). also i remember my mother telling me that when she was younger he cousin died by falling in a pit of quick sand. i’ve always thought that was such a horrible way to die.
since i’m an athlete i always fear getting seriously injured. i’ve managed to avoid it so far in life but i fear the day someone falls into my knee and tears my acl or something. *knocks on wood*
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Peyso Reply:
November 17th, 2009 at 12:03 pm
You ever thought about learning how to swim? That would be the easiest way to not fear something anymore
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Tunde Reply:
November 17th, 2009 at 12:16 pm
i’ve been to 3 different swimming classes and have had 2 friends (both lifeguards) try to teach me. i have zero buoyancy. it’s ridiculous.
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Seattle Washington Reply:
November 17th, 2009 at 12:18 pm
Doggy paddle. No shots. But the shit works. I have no buoyancy either, I just keep it moving at all times.
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My fear is being too fearful. I don’t want to look back on my life and say I should have done it but I was afraid.
As the name implies I am fearful of the dark. The thought of not being able to see my hand in front of face makes me sweat and curl up in a fetal position.
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Seattle Washington Reply:
November 17th, 2009 at 10:42 am
That’s the ultimate conundrum. So do you recognize your fear and then rock out with your proverbial cock out? How do you battle that?
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Ladycakes is afraid of the dark...don't judge Reply:
November 17th, 2009 at 11:14 am
I analyze the situation. If there is a rational reason why I have angst about it then I probably wouldn’t do it if there isn’t a rational reason I grit my teeth move ahead with anyway.
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Miss Jenkins Reply:
November 17th, 2009 at 11:14 am
I’m scared of the dark too…its okay.
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Seattle Washington Reply:
November 17th, 2009 at 12:19 pm
Getting you guys a night light for Christmas/Hanukkah/Kwanzaa or whatever you kids are celebrating this year.
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Toni Reply:
November 17th, 2009 at 1:30 pm
I dislike the dark too. I sleep with a night lamp (night lights are too small). My bulb just burned out, so I’ve been sleeping with the whole light on now.
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I’m afraid of cockroaches. Well, fear and loathing (in San Antonio) are closely related when it comes to la cucaracha.
I’m also afraid of marriage and ending up like my highly dysfunctional yet still married parents, and screwing up my kids like they did us.
On the other hand, I’m afraid of never finding love, being alone forever, and never having kids. Both sides of the spectrum are really scary. So I guess the bottom line is…
I’m afraid of growing up. And having to make real decisions with real consequences. Bringing other people into my twisted life and messing them up with my bad decisions, too. I hate making decisions, but so far in life, they have been heavily influenced by my parents. So when I’m the parent, or when they’re no longer around, how much am I going to screw up my life?
That being said, I’m also afraid of losing people I love. I’m not afraid of death for me. But I’m afraid of how I will handle the death of those closest to me. Especially my daddy! =/
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ASmith Reply:
November 17th, 2009 at 10:46 am
I’m also afraid of losing people I love. I’m not afraid of death for me. But I’m afraid of how I will handle the death of those closest to me. Especially my daddy! =/
Agh — I have a real fear of my mother’s death. I try not to think about/talk about/consider it. I’ve already told her she can’t die, so she understands what we’re working with here. Pretty sure that’s going to be enough.
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I would love to say I’m scared of nothing… but there are a few fears that the world has put into me that I can’t let go…
Transexuals.
Herpes (not AIDS)
and being raped by a man…
CHeeKZ Haters: ‘I thought you said rape wasn’t painful and only a learned reaction that was only in our mind”
CHeeKZ: “That is my point! Its in my mind. I’m pro-gay rights. But I’m homophobic”
Have you ever seen that episode of the Shield where Captain Aceveda got jumped by a junkie and they put a gun to his head and made him deep throat and shallow, than recorded it on a cell phone?! That is the worst fate in the world to me… I would rather have the dude pull the trigger than suck some dude off (pause x million)
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Seattle Washington Reply:
November 17th, 2009 at 11:20 am
Dude, I think that’s every man’s fear. I’ve been on the straight and narrow path since I watched Oz. Not the movie with MJ, I’m talking about the gang raping and toothbrush shanking show that was on HBO awhile back. That series was better than any type of intervention, Maury Boot Camp or after school special.
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LoudPen Reply:
November 17th, 2009 at 12:52 pm
Classic statement. Pls archive this slim.
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CHeeKZ Reply:
November 17th, 2009 at 1:39 pm
Co-sign on the OZ…
that dude on Law and Order SUV was on there. He was pissed at his boyfriend (or girlfriend? whatever) and grabbed his head while he was sucking him off and snapped his neck. I was thinking damn.. what a way to die with a piece in your mouth.
#nightmares.
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Seattle Washington Reply:
November 17th, 2009 at 1:48 pm
I remember that scene. My young soul died a little on the inside.
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Black and Trapped in Toronto Reply:
November 17th, 2009 at 4:28 pm
ROFL
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I’m afraid of letting people down and not being able to be there for them when they need me. This fear sometimes comes at the expense of me not being there for myself.
On a lighter note, I am also afraid of the po-lice and sometimes I’m scared of the dark. I also have a fear of something happening to my teeth. These pearly whites mean a lot to me.
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ASmith Reply:
November 17th, 2009 at 11:13 am
…just when I think I’ve adequately addressed all my issues/fears…
I think that fear is so deeply embedded in my psyche it’s almost literally become a part of who I am. Can’t tell where my personality ends and the fear starts on that one.
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I always fear my car getting towed, even when I’m parked legally.
I’m afraid for when my parents die.
And sometimes I fear I’ll go to jail, for busting the windows out of someone’s car, most likely a man…
Jazmine Sullivan has me thinking it’s healing, and I don’t believe it because I’m mentally stable but sometimes I really do want to go around smashing (pause).
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CHeeKZ Reply:
November 17th, 2009 at 1:52 pm
” I really do want to go around smashing (pause).”
#Welldone
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Things I’m Scared of:
-I know I have the capacity to do great things, but I’m scared I will never do it.
-Car breaking down on the freeway. (I break into sweat when I feel the car shaking even if it’s just going over pot holes!)
-Losing my teeth (apparently I’m not the only one)
-Not living life to the fullest because I’m too busy focused on useless shit.
-Getting cancer, it’s hit way too close to home.
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I’m afraid of having platonic male relationships. I truly believe that guys and girls can’t be friends because every single one of my good guy friends turned out liking the same sex.
Nothing wrong with that, but I’m starting to think that something is wrong with me… So, I just stay away from all that.
And office politics. I’m a peon and I’m usually the one getting trampled or pissed on. So, its fair to say that I’m afraid of anything that looks like I have to pick a side.
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CHeeKZ Reply:
November 17th, 2009 at 1:59 pm
About your platonic friends….
is it that you are scared of them? or you just don’t believe in them?
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I have a couple of fears…
I have a fear of losing n e of my family members. I love all of them so much and i would die for n e of them.
I have a fear of not succeeding in life. I hit a couple of bumps in the road last year and i am now FINALLY back on the right path (i hope.) Being a failure at life scares the bee-gee-zies out of me.
I also have a fear of never being able to experience (romantic) love. I’m almost 24 and i have yet to have a real, successful relationship and i have never been in love…when i get close to a relationship…i self-sabotage…which i hate…and i kno i’m doing it but i can’t stop myself…i fear that i will never get over some ish…
Last…i have a fear of gaining a ton of weight…i’ve been tiny my entire life (i’m 5’3″ and 110 lbs)…that’s y i’m such an active individual…
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I fear that the people in my life who are important to me don’t know that they are important (and how much).
I fear being mediocre.
I fear not moving forward in my career.
I fear not living up to my potential, not doing greatness, and then being forgotten. I’m 25… I have no Nobel Prizes, no inventions, no cures for cancer or AIDS. I’m running out of time to be great. Maybe I chose the wrong path…
I’m afraid of being betrayed.
If I get my own family one day, I’m afraid that I won’t be a good father.
I’m afraid I won’t achieve all my goals.
I fear that I’m not as intelligent as people seem to tell me. That it is just a huge joke everyone is playing on me to hide the fact that I’m mentally retarded.
I’m afraid of myself and the monster I could become under certain circumstances.
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El Reply:
November 17th, 2009 at 12:30 pm
“I fear that I’m not as intelligent as people seem to tell me. That it is just a huge joke everyone is playing on me to hide the fact that I’m mentally retarded.”
I have the same fear in regards to being creative and smart as well. I fear people are lying to me.
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Still Water Reply:
November 17th, 2009 at 12:49 pm
Ditto.
In my head. I’m great. But in reality, I feel like people are lying when they say I’m good.
But that fear keeps me pushin.
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Tunde Reply:
November 17th, 2009 at 3:41 pm
“I fear not living up to my potential, not doing greatness, and then being forgotten. I’m 25… I have no Nobel Prizes, no inventions, no cures for cancer or AIDS. I’m running out of time to be great. Maybe I chose the wrong path…
I fear that I’m not as intelligent as people seem to tell me. That it is just a huge joke everyone is playing on me to hide the fact that I’m mentally retarded.”
i also have these same fears. i’m 28 and by now i thought i would at least have found the cure for prostate cancer. i used to hope that it was such a simple answer and it would come to me in a dream. i would then win the nobel prize in biochemistry and live phat of patents and speaking tours. alas, it hasn’t happened yet and i’m fearful that it won’t ever happen.
on the 2nd part, i’ve been told i was smart as far back as i can remember. well not that far back. only as far back as the 2nd grade when i was already on mixed fractions. but what if i’m not really that smart? i know i’m really not hence my gre scores coming into grad school. or maybe it was because i was lazy and really didn’t prepare for it. *shrugs*
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My biggest fear is failure. So much so that I take forever to make a decision because I’m so afraid that if I make the wrong one, I’ll waste a lot of time trying to correct it.
After fear, I’d have to say that my next fear is how I’m gonna go. I think I’ve come to grips with the fact that one day I’m gonna leave this earth but the LAST way I wanna go is in pain.
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Anger Management Reply:
November 17th, 2009 at 12:41 pm
Oh and ROO to the good bruhz
Happy Founders Day!
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The reactions to this post are funny to me. Not in a literal humorous way, but, because everyone seems to be in their own world. Usually everyone has conversations with each other, but, the topic of fear is something that we all possess. Weird….so weird. Everyone is literally afraid of something.
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Smiley Face Reply:
November 17th, 2009 at 1:31 pm
I guess because everyone’s fear is so very personal that you really can’t refute or agree/disagree with them.
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Seattle Washington Reply:
November 17th, 2009 at 1:48 pm
I’m actually surprised at how many folks don’t think they’re doing the damn thing or are wondering if they’re on the right path.
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Smiley Face Reply:
November 17th, 2009 at 2:10 pm
I’m not…as short as it seems to be…LIFE and living is the longest thing you will ever do.
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I’m afraid to see Precious today. Cot damn. All I’ve heard is how depressing this movie is. Thank God it’s free, I’m not sure I would pay to be sad.
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LouiseKay Reply:
November 17th, 2009 at 2:07 pm
Try reading the book
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Seattle Washington Reply:
November 17th, 2009 at 3:29 pm
::shudders::
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I started to say that I’m afraid of not meeting my goals b/c I’m not where I need/want to be, and although I’ll just hit my mid-20′s in a few wks…The View is on where I am, and they’re interviewing millionaire teens and tweens! (F’em all!)…
In any event after reading so many posts w/ ppl having that same fear, I realize I’m in a boat w/ a lot of folks and I think I’ll shelf that fear for today b/c I’m not alone…and just co-sign Miss Jenkins & Ladycakes w/ that FEAR OF THE DARK!
…But dig this, when I’ve had the TV turned off after I’m asleep I sleep ssssooooo much better (I need to check this fear, but I’m so afraid)…
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Smiley Face Reply:
November 17th, 2009 at 2:11 pm
I set my timer on the tv…without it on I ain’t sleeping lol
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I have fears but I am working on confronting them which is what I hope everyone got out of this post..cause thats what I did.
Fear is like the #1 thing that holds us back from doing the things we should be doing to be successful balanced ppl…even fear of the boogie man.
the pic #throwback omg I feel so old..thanks Seattle!!!
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